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12/13/2003
There is nothing like a non-computer person trying to set up her brand new computer to drive herself and everyone else just little crazy. BUT it is finally up. The bill's are not paid, the house is not cleaned, the presents are not brought, but hey, my computer is up and going. After all there ARE priorities. Now I'm busy putting everything that's been scraped on to paper onto the computer. I still need a good desktop publishing program, but word will work for now. I sooo wish I could have some of this done in time for Xmas gifts for friends and family but.... maybe by next year or the year after.

Speaking of next year, WTF is wrong with our country? Are the Dem's just trying to lose? I think so. I mean Dean isn't so stupid that he could make that remark by mistake. I swear I hate our two party system. If only we had a real democracy. I'm just sad. I think we will have another 4 yrs of Bush and there isn't much we can do about it.

On to other subjects. My mother is going crazy. She is upset as hell because J. and I have decided not to have children. J. is looking into having a visotomy I think the end of Jan. For me it is a relief. It isn't that I don't love kids, I do, but with all the mental illness and addiction that runs in J. and my family what right do we have to bring in another child? I tell G*d all the time, if he wants me to have kids then he will have to make me preg. I won't have another abortion, but I'm not going to go out and TRY to get preg. if anything I do what I can to avoid it. If J. gets the visotomy then it is all the more in G*d's hands. Why can't my own mother just be happy that I'm here, that I'm alive? If she wanted more children, she could have chosen to have more herself. If she was serious about wanted kids in the house then she would clean up her act and adopt/ foster them. BUT no, she wants me, a person who lives on the finacle edge (better now but still), with a husband that rarely keeps a job longer then 9 months, with no house, heck not even an extra bedroom, to somehow have a child. What is it with her? How can she know me so little? When have my choices ever made her happy?

P.S I hate that my spelling is so crappy that blogger can't even figure out what I'm trying to say!
Saturday, December 13, 2003