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I'm a Gryffindor! What the hell is wrong (and sometimes right)   4/21/2003   As I think harder about going into surgery (only 30 days away) I begin to want to try and finish things, just in case I don't wake up. Yet I'm procrastnating doing these things as well b/c I don't want to dwell on dieing. There of course are all the things that won't be done b/c of time or money which I'm trying not to be angry/sad about. G-d this is so hard to even write. I've begun to dream again in vived colors, things that are good and bad, sometimes even erotic. My soul trying to live 24/7. What lessons am I missing? No matter, whatever happens, happens. Acceptance of change in all forms. The hardest thing to think about is John........I just don't want to leave him behind. Monday, April 21, 2003